ABOUT ME
My mission
My mission is to support people in their process of getting in touch with their own self-healing capacity. In a world where we often hand over our power to experts, I want to let you find your own way. Think of it as if we are on a journey together, you show the way and all I do is support you to walk that path safely. So I don't lead, I follow you. I will occasionally point out something we encounter together. But you always make the choice about what you want to investigate and which path you take.
By listening with curiosity, compassion, love, and understanding to everything that arises in your process, you increase your capacity to be fully present to all parts of you that are fearful, angry, judgmental or overanalytical. We often want to change, deny, or condemn these parts of ourselves because experiencing them sometimes evokes pain, shame or guilt in us. But if we learn to be unconditionally with these parts of us and really listen to them, we can have a healthier relationship with them. And we let go of identification with these parts. You are not sad or angry, but something in you is sad or angry. Letting go of that identification can often feel like more space or more possibility or freedom in the body.
The power of the breath and the psychedelic truffles (psilocybin) both work as a catalyst in this process. They take us to the places that hurt and they support us in experiencing more fully what the body and soul want to tell us about it.
With my work I hope to contribute to a world where people can really listen to themselves and others, leading to more curiosity, compassion, love, understanding, and connection in society.
I like to work with people who are willing to make the journey inward and open themselves up to the possibilities of inner healing, growth, and transformation.
My journey
At 14 I suffered from anxiety and depression. I no longer recognized myself and had no idea why I suddenly felt so lost. I initially went to a psychologist, but I felt I had no answers to her questions.
I ended up seeing a body-oriented therapist by chance. Where I learned to feel and listen to my body.
But my reason won over my feelings when I chose to study Psychology. I wanted to understand and know everything.
After graduating, I didn't really know what I wanted. I did not like working as a psychologist, because at the age of 25 I felt that I was not at all ready to guide people in their process.
I eventually started working at Amnesty International as a web editor and later as a press officer. This was a phase of wanting to achieve a lot, pleasing everyone and hiding my feelings. After 9 years I had learned a lot, but I was also exhausted and tired. With gratitude in my heart, I quit my job in 2018.
In 2012 I was introduced to breathwork and a little later to psychedelics. This helped me reconnect with my body and listen to what it needs. Slowly but surely I felt my own inner strength again. I realized how tiring it was to wear a mask. Layer by layer I came closer to myself and realized that I wanted to put my energy into facilitating people in similar journeys.
I became a mother in 2014. This was one of the most beautiful and one of the most difficult times in my life. I was still in the middle of a stressful job at the time and this turned my life upside down even further. The first years were difficult due to a combination of lack of sleep and recurring depression and anxiety complaints. The breathwork pulled me through this and made me realize that I needed to seriously rethink my relationships and my work.
In addition to my Psychology Master degree, I followed various training courses and courses: Breathwork at Adem & Stem and Clarity Breathwork, Focusing, Compassionate Inquiry and massage therapy. But the most important thing has been my own process. In 2018 I finally took that step and started Essa Ademwerk.
For psychedelic work, I gained a lot of experience working for Field Trip Health, a clinic that combined therapy sessions with a truffle ceremony. I am extremely grateful for the experience I have gained in the team. In 2023 I left Field Trip to work entirely for myself again.
The quote below cannot really express better what I have learned and continue to learn in my personal development.
“Every bad feeling is potential energy toward a more right way of being if you give it space to move toward its rightness.”
— EUGENE GENDLIN
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